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ASH GEDEN
c aref u l ly attempte d to ma ke a tu r n of t he hand l e i n ord e r to apply
a l itt le more pressure, and w it h t hat , e ve r y t h i ng fel l sl a ck as it
l itera l ly just fel l of f. How d o you just f a l l of f ? Wit h my j aw now
s ome w here dow n by my ars e, I sk ipp e d t he r i g b a ck i n to i nsp e c t
my p er fe c t ly f ine r ig w it h a tu r ne d - ove r ho ok p oi nt. Two l oss e s
i n a row – s o cr uel!
8am c ame round, and w it h no more a c t i on , I topp e d up t he are a
and went of f hunt ing , w it h t he pl an of not f ish i ng t hat n i g ht . T he
or ig ina l pl an was to b e t here ne x t just b e fore t he d ate of t he f u l l
mo on, hav ing b e en pushi ng my s el f to t he l i m it s w it h t he l a ck of
sl e eping and e at ing t hat w as re pl a c e d by pl ott i ng and pl an n i ng
i n t he deter minat ion to ke e p my d re ams a p o ss ibi l it y… I w as
c ompletely bur nt out.
A f ish loss a lways s e ems wors e s itt i ng at home ; it re a l ly g r i nds
aw ay at you! Fe eling s or r y for my s el f and l i ck i ng my wou nds
w hi lst t r y ing my b est to zone out st ar i ng at a T V t hat I w ante d to
t h row out t he w indow (t here we re a dve r t s on at t he t i me ! ) , I st i l l
c ou ldn’t stop lo ok ing at t ho s e bl o o dy we at he r app s . It w as b ob on condit ions – mo on, pressu re, t he l ot ! I g l anc e d at t he cl o ck .
It was 10pm, and t he motor w as ha l f l o a d e d… “S o d t h is ,” I s ai d.
“I’m of f !”
The rest, as t he y s ay, is histor y…
Na h… I’m j ok ing!
Ne ver has t here b e en more of an an x i ous d r ive i n my l i fe. It w as
one of t hos e rare v ib es you ge t w he n you’re c on ne c te d t hat d e e ply
to w hat you have fo c us e d e ve r y t h i ng you have b e e n work i ng s o
hard for on. S omet hi ng ma d e me d o w hat I d i d t hat n i g ht , and
I wasn’t going to quest ion it ! It w as now arou nd 1 1: 3 0 pm by t he
t i me I was s ett le d in, and w it h my s e ns e s r u n n i ng at t he i r p e a k
on t he br ig ht, mo on lit nig ht , one - by - one, w it h 1 0 0 % a c c u r a c y,
FR E ELINE 73
